just woke up and showered but i’m really digging my bone structure 2day
i can already see some progress in my cheek and collarbone area (i.e. i can see my cheekbones/collarbone again, fuck yeeeeh)
anyways i have a few qualms with my face but i’m getting over them cause i’m basically horrendously good-looking
"I love fat girls they’re so hot until they don’t fall to their knees in gratitude for my fetishization of them, then they turn into fat ugly bitches who should just be glad anyone looked their way"
We need to stop promoting the idea that fat people are only beautiful if they dress hyper-feminine or hyper-masculine.
Yes, fat babes wearing 50s-style dresses and red lipstick are gorgeous, but so are fat babes who like to wear baggy tshirts and no makeup.
Only talking about the beauty of fat people who spend a great deal of time styling themselves promotes the idea that somehow fat people are not as beautiful as everyone else and need to try harder.
well, i didn’t start running. sighs. probably saturday, i’ve felt awful all week.
i’ve been thinking that one of the reasons i want to lose weight is so that i get taken seriously in my chosen field. it sucks that there are such arbitrary stupid ways fat people get treated differently, but if there are at least it motivates me to seek change (both in the social system and in my own appearance). i wish my motivations were purely health-related. oh well. mostly is good enough, right?
This is how losing weight feels.
THAT COMMENT - I HAVE HOPE NOW!
okay so in the spirit of keeping up with things i guess i’ll post at least once a day.
i ate pretty well today, but in two huge chunks rather than in nice intervals.
i walked a lot, and quickly, even though i didn’t do it with the intention of working out.
it’d be nice to get a good sleep and balance my food intake better tomorrow.
okay, that’s that.
getting back into the swing of things is tough.
I sound like a jerk because I have been back, I just haven’t been posting!
I’ve been retraining myself to eat healthily, and starting to walk places instead of bussing, etc. The prospect of really working out again is daunting to me but I’m gonna get there soon! Most likely starting my running up again on Monday.
Posting here is helpful and I’m going to try to remember that along my journey.
Thanks for bearing with me.
Y’all are golden.
I know I’ve said this before, but I’m back. It’s happening.